Ewwww Monday

Today happened to be one of those struggle with life Mondays. During my depressed state, if things got too much, I would just call in sick and stay in bed all day. Not today. After a rather difficult yoga class this morning, at least some food in my stomach and some extra strength helped me slosh through the day at work. I was really glad Carol was there. She is usually at the 6:30 am yoga class at Bikram Mission Yoga Studio where I go to practice. Having her there was such a help.

I called H&R Block last night and found out today that I have an appointment with them tommorrow night to help me with my taxes. At least I feel better about things. I got some laundry done (the essential stuff such as underwear and clean towels and sports bras and running socks) and got some groceries I needed the next few days. I think I will be able to make it through the next few days. It has been really such a struggle mentally, physcially and financially.

I usually don't bitch about work but today I need to. I was just surrounded by people I really don't like. People that zap my energy and just make me feel icky. I really need to get out of there. Fast!!! Finding out that a person I'm not too fond of is coming back to work there and my manager is leaving at the end of the month just makes me want to zoom and leave. It's time I go before I get more energy sucked out.

There are people that truly want to be there. The rest just see this as a pit stop. There are some people that zap my energy, where they are just plain catty, rude, snippy, pour out their negativity or their misery by just pushing around others. I'm not really stimulated to do anything productive or creative or useful. Plus I want my weekends back to ride and run and spend time with people. Isn't that simple enough?

There were few good points of light in my day. A few former co-workers came by to say hello. I helped David, a training ride leader from last year, pick out some shirts for his partner's birthday. Ben came by later on and we chit chatted about things.

So I felt buoyed. Things were bearable. I did get stuff done. I feel somewhat accomplished.

Easter Resurrection

Happy Easter everyone! I know not everyone is of some religion of some Christian denomination or some derivative of it.

I had a nice Easter. Went to Mass and worked. Not bad for a Sunday. I've been putting more hours at work while at the same time job hunting. It has been somewhat of a tiring experience- I've been sleeping quite a bit lately but I think with the rest, I'll get stronger.

My roommate Patty told me it was going to rain the next few days. Poo! I wanted to go cycling on Wednesday and I still have yet to do my laundry that has been really piling up. I'm really running on empty on the clean clothes. Time to get rolling on that.

Cycling has been going ok. I need to get out on the bike more but I felt really great after a ride to Lagunitas last week. Curtis is doing the final adjustments on my bike on Tuesday and then I'm ready to roll. I'm working a lot to open up my shoulders. There is one yoga pose I am having some difficulty with and it requires opening my shoulders. It's going to take a long time to work it out. During my last session with Curtis when he adjusted my seat, he discovered how stiff my shoulders were. It was practically like concrete, especially my right shoulder. So I've been working on it every night, using the foam roller and doing some exercises one of the instructors at the yoga studio I go to showed me.

Tommorrow is Joe's birthday. I sent him his present last week, a pair of board shorts I got him at work. I thought of him when they came into the store in February, remembering his Hawaii trip in May. I'm so sure he will totally love them. Hopefully he doesn't read into them. I don't know.

I have yet to do my taxes. Ick. One less thing I am looking forward to.

Otherwise, nite nite.

Watching What You Say

So Ma talks to me one night a few weeks ago and tells me about my cousins in the Philippines finding out about Uncle Joe's upcoming divorice. No one in the Philippines knows about it (Ma had two sisters stay in the Philippines while the rest of the family immigrated over after Ed was born) until I wrote some tidbit about it in my journal. Surely enough, my cousin Brandon (know to us as B.J.) who is on Friendster happens to click on this weblog since I had it on my profile (it's no longer there). It makes me wonder what exactly should I write in my weblog these days.

Face it. People get entertainment from reading other's weblogs. I know I do. I'm just thinking of keeping things quiet. Maybe that's why I haven't been writing that much. Then again, I have been quite busy with things like work, drafting that personal statement for law school, riding my bike, running, going to yoga class (still going 5 times a week), job hunting...all that good stuff.

I'll get back to you later on that stuff.